Having a bad day today, and I have no idea if it's due to the condition or the medication or a combination of the two. I just feel really angry about having to go through this, yet a part of me at the moment doesn't want to get better. If I get better I'll have to go back to work and cope with everything again. I can't even face going to the town where I work.
I know I should be pushing myself to do things, and I feel caught in the trap of being depressed inside, but anxious out. I don't know what to do for the best.
It hasn't been helped by the fact that my beloved houserabbit died this week, and again I have no idea how much that is affecting all of this. I just feel I had more influence on my emotions last week.
Any advice on this 'stage' of the illness would be gratefully received.