Today i had a panic attack outside again for the first time in months.
Ive been doing exposure but may have gone about it a bit skewed: i can drive around my city, visit my mum and go into little quiet shops. But the one place that has me gasping for air and staggering about is my own neighborhood!
There is a little shopping street on the other side of the block i live in and i keep trying to walk through it but if anything it keeps getting harder!
I planned on going round the block today but when i got outside i chickened out and went for a drive instead. Drove to a park and read a book for a bit, went fine. But when i got home i was determined to walk round the block so i set off. Panic rose and rose and when i got to the corner about to enter the shopping street a bomb went off in my head. Full on panic. I had to call my mum and keep talking to her while i staggered back home...
I recovered quite fast once at home but am feeling very disheartened.... Feels like ill never be able to get through that street...