*sigh* Sometimes it sucks being a hypochodriac. I feel like an emotional chamellion. I was telling my friend that I had been having a hard time being motivated to do anything and she told me that she thought it sounded like I was depressed. Man, that is all that it took for me to freak out. I have been having problems remembering things and thinking of words. Plus I have been down quite a bit. Two things to keep in mind is that I have doing some self help work in the Dr. Phil diet book. I am being very introspective and I am not liking what I am finding. The thought of changing and growing stronger is very scary to me. I am also having to take responsibility for my actions and thoughts. I am also having hormonal problems. The worst of my "dark days" it was overcast and I was just days before starting my period. I think I am pre-menapausal too. Just how simular are the symptoms of depression and the after effects of anxiety? Just thinking that I may have depression is seriously stressing me out!!! I do know that when I go out like to shop or to meetings I forget that I feel bad and I ususally have a great time. So I am also wondering if it is me just sitting here feeling sorry for myself. All I can think of is that I just don't think I can handle one more thing being wrong with me. I would appreceate any help you can give me. I do not have the money to go to the Dr. even if I could get over all the phobias that I attatch to medical treatment. So if any of you can help me to sort this thing out, I would appreceate it.
God bless you and yours
Debbie