Today, was not a good day. I had a breakdown that last for hours. I could not stop shaking or crying. Mostly of my anxiety come from trying to control the future and we all know we cant, but my brain does not get that fact. It is not fine with not knowing, so it goes to every dam possible scenario of what might happen in the future. As a grown man there is a lot of things to worry about (job, raising a family, taking care of the house and etc..) and trying to control all those things to detail for next two years its impossible. In college and high school life was much easier even suffering with high anxiety disorder, but now oh man. Adult life is extremely stressful + suffering with this disorder/disease + some agoraphobia it can make you think that life is hell ( I was born in 3 world country, so I know what bad life is. But, anxiety make life feel like is hell). And to think that I still have at least 30 more year of work left. I wish my brain could give me break.

I just changed physiologist recently I hope that she will be able to help me.