for years i've suffered with depression and anxiety, largely without realising it to be honest... much t the frustration of my family and friends...

13 months ago i had a meltdown... and i sought help and got started on Citalopram...

20mg at first then up to 30mg after about 6 weeks... i'm still on 30 mg now...


i still have shakey days. i still have anxiety, especially if something happens like a job change, or other stressful events... i feel like i can't cope with stress anymore, and done feel as strong as i used to be.

in general, i'm happy. i have a wonderful new man, we are starting a fabulous life together. my job is great and everything seems great. my friends and family tell me how changed iam and hw nice it is to see "Rachel" back!!!! thats ME!!!!

but i wonder where i go from here.... i know i cant be totally free of mental illness, but should i seek my doctor again with my anxiety still lingering? or is this just normal and how it goes?!!

when do i consider coming off citalopram? How do i know when to cut back or start weaning off them?

its just this "whats next" thing... where do i go and what do i do!!!