Not sure where to put this post so i will try here.
I'm feeling really upset as my boss just won't leave me in peace. She is trying to get me to attend a meeting in Perth (which actually has nothing to do with my job to begin with, she even admitted that she wanted me to go so that she could get me to do all of her work while she relaxes cos she can't be bothered with it and that it is not a necessity) but I don't want to go cos I find travelling very scary and it causes me alot of anxiety. I'm from Edinburgh so it's over an hour away and along motorway which I hate driving on. I can't car share as my anxiety gets worst in situations that i can't escape quickly and easily from. I'm also not good on public transport.
I told my work before I'd even accepted the job about my anxiety and what i can and can't do and at the time they said it was no problem at all and they would support me. They even changed my contract so I am not contracted to travel as part of my job and they said they would never force me to do anything which made me uncomfortable or anxious. A year later and they are going back on their word.
Today i had a review with my boss and yet again she asked if i would attend the meeting in Perth (this was literally just after she had asked me how my anxiety was and I said I was still having big issues with travelling). When I said no she then said i "wasn't taking my job seriously" and accused me of using my anxiety as a convenient excuse. Basically she doesn't believe I have anxiety and thinks i'm just being lazy.
I felt so hurt, like a dagger had just been stabbed in my back. Part of my wanted to hit her (i'm not violent so i would never of actually hurt her) and part of me wanted to burst into tears. I've done nothing but work my backside off both for her and on overcoming my anxiety. people who know me (family, friends, my gp) are all so proud of what I have achieved this year and i have come on leaps and bounds in everyone's eyes. Everyone else at work says i do a brillant job and i am very reliable and hard working. My GP has also told me to focus on overcoming my anxiety in my personal time and told me not to take on too much professionally as it does add pressure and causes me considerably more anxiety.
I just can't take it anymore. She's always taking advantage of me, getting me to work overtime then making nasty, unnecessary remarks. She looks down her nose at me simply because we have different personalities and belief and now this. I've learnt to take what she says with a pinch of salt but i feel this has crossed the line and i'm not at all happy about it. I shouldn't have to tolerate this!