FW: I am so proud of myself today

[Sue K with 5]

I faced the worse fear today that I have had to face in a long time.

I went for my first CBT apt. Not only did i refuse to get out of the car, when I got in there I shouted at my CPN to take me home, if you had seen this poor womans face sitting there waiting to be seen you would have felt so sorry for her I was like a two year old stamping her feet, well I met my CBT man and he was lovely, when my CPN left us in the room I nearly darted out. I had a major panic attack and I wanted to run like the clappers, but I stayed and he helped me to realise that I was not about to die. I made him turn out the lights in the room cos it made me feel worse, but I stayed. I talked and cried and really felt so comfortable around him, which has got to be a first in a long time.

I never had another panic attack and I never collapsed or died in there and my fear of never seeing my front door again never happened. Its early days but I felt great and I am so glad I went. Next friday is my next apt and the challenge is to get there again and see that anxiety feeling through and not run

I want to thank Donna for the chat at 4am in the morning and Linda for texting me throughout the whole morning.

Your hugs made me leave the house today and I so want to thank you for that. Hugs can make a huge difference.


sue

xxxx

scknight

[yorkylover]

Well done on staying pet.You must feel so good in your self today.He has probably seen it all before,so I wouldnt worry.You have done the first and hardest step.It will get easier,now you know he hasnt got two heads.[Yeah!]

Ellen XX

[tam]

sue well done be proud of yourself ,im so proud of you.you did it,you went what a feeling.
well done sue
tc tracy

[ConfusedByLife]

Well done Sue

Although many ppl helped you, ultimately it was you who had to face their fear and you did it so well done. It is a great feeling when you finally cross that bridge face your fear and come out the other side in one piece. I was so glad when I did it also, it felt like a huge weight lifted. Although there will be many other challenges you have made the 1st step, probably the biggest and you will begin to realise there are many people who not only understand, but are willing to help. Well done again and good luck in the future.

[Granny Primark]

Sue, thats amazing. That was the first big hurdle over, theyl all be small ones now.
Your on the road to recovery mate and i feel over the moon for you.
GO GIRL!!!

Take care
LYNN xx

[Nel]

Aw Sue I am so pleased for you! Onwards and upwards now hon!

Nel xxx

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[LickeyEndBlues]

Wooo Wooooooooo Sue!!

Way to go girl!!

Iain
xx

What's so funny about peace, love and understanding?

[manmoor]

Sue well done you. I knew you could do it. Stay strong. xx

Take Care

Mandyxx

[Piglet]

I'm sure it will get easier from now on - the first time with anything is always the most difficult, with the exception of Baileys - the first time with that was terrific and it still is!!

Piglet

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[trac67]

Well done Sue, knew you could do it

Love

Trac xx

'Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain'