Hi everyone
Don't really understand what's going on here. I had the most dreadful sleep problems for almost 3 months - no more than 2 maybe 3 hours sleep a night, even with Zimovane. Although I dreaded christmas and the new year (everyone who read my posts will know why), it wasn't too bad. Different to every christmas and new year we've ever had, but we coped. In fact for almost 2 weeks my sleep significantly improved!!
Can't think why, but for the last 3 nights I've had a disturbed sleep pattern emerging again - I woke up at 4 am, then 4.15 and this morning 4.25. The first night I managed to get back to sleep; the second night I dozed, but could really feel the effects of the lack of sleep as the day wore on. This morning I couldn't get back to sleep at all; my eyes are bloodshot, I feel absolutely shattered and I can feel the teariness and waves of negativity washing around me.
I know I've got to try not to blow it all out of proportion - I don't want worrying about not getting sleep actually becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy. I don't understand why, when life is a bit more bearable than it has been for some time, this sleep thing is happening again. But readers of my previous posts will know the effects lack of sleep had on me - I really did feel like giving up on everything on more than one occasion, I just wanted to put my head on the pillow and SLEEP.
I'm on propanalol - 3 x 40 mg a day. When I don't feel I need them, I don't take them - yesterday I only had 2 tablets, one at 7 am and the other at 11. pm. On bad days I have taken 4 tablets. The last 3 mornings when I have woken, I have been jittery - this morning the butterflies had moved from my tummy to my chest. I just tell the pains to go away, do a couple of stretches, and it has helped me relax enough to get back to sleep or doze. But not this morning. I'm wondering if the smaller amounts of propanalol (when I ease off the tablets), mean that there is insufficient in my bloodstream to take me thru the night?
Anybody any thoughts or suggestions?
I didn't have time yesterday to listen to my hypnosis downloads, but hopefully will remedy that today. Maybe they will help.
Sandie