I really haven't been this low in quite a while.. I don't know what to do with myself.. I'm scared every minute of the day and now, I have tonsillitis. It's not that, that's scaring me because I understand it is obviously not life threatening as I've had it before and I was okay in the end. I got some penicillin on Friday and over the weekend I've been through hell and back. I've been suffering terribly with lower back pain which has scared me because I never had that before. It's also hurting my legs and pelvic sometimes so, I went back to the doctors today and he's gave me stronger tablets because he said they should have gone down by now, but they've got larger.. which is fair enough and I asked about this back pain and he didn't seem that concerned about it at all, he just said, that it's possible it's just how my body is reacting with this tonsillitis but I've never been in so much pain I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. He said, I should start to feel better by 48 hours.
This back pain is really making me fret and because I'm so low, I've gone off my food, I've lost about half a stone within 3 days and I just don't know how to be positive about this whole thing. It's making me feel worse, knowing Christmas is nearly here, I'm really not looking forward too it