new member needs advice

[babevictoria]

hi, im Vic from Durham. About May I had a bad experience that basically sent me loopy for the night,I took spped at a party. Not big or clever. since then i have suffered from a constant feelin of im going to go mad, the night it happened i dont remember 4 hours of the night but i do remember trying to stop myself screaming and a person threatening to throw me down a hill, i was so scared and feared for my life, the memories haunt me, i find that my spirit has died completely and that i have this constant paranoia of "what if". The biggest "what if" is that im worried im going to start talking in a strange way or make funny noises, but its never hapened. Its odd! I need it to leave me alone, please help or give any advice you can

Take Care
Vic

[Meg]

Hey Victoria ,

Glad you found your way here.

There is quite a Durham ish clan on board already .

As we talked about in the chat room earlier today these are thoughts not instructions and you will never make these noises. You are fearful of them but as you are totally in control you will not choose to make them.

You are certainly not going mad , you are more in control now than ever before as you are watching yourself so closely .

Do read ' First Steps ' under introductions .



Meg

Anxiety is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind.
If encouraged, it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained.
Robert Albert Bloch

[Karen]

Hi Vic

Welcome to the forum. I am sure you will find lots of support and help here and find that you are certainly not alone.

Take care,

Briary

[seh1980]

Hi there,

I'm one of the Durham crew - we will definetly have to get to know eachother and meet up!! Take care.

Sarah

[ed]

hey vic,
i'm ed,23, and i live in durham with sarah seh1980, my girlfriend.
I'm not exactly proud to say but i've had my fair share of experiences with drugs, mainly when i was younger. some were good, some really bad that to this day i havent forgotten. I guess over time you get your confidence back after a bad experience on something like speed. I know these things do play on your mind, but you are in control and time is a great healer with support!
Take care,
ed

[nomorepanic]

Hi Victoria

Good to talk to you last night in the chat room and so glad you decided to join us on here.

Quite a few people have started panic attacks following taking drugs so you are not alone in that.

Let us know if you have any questions and we will help all we can.

Nicola

[sarah]

Hi Vic

just wanted to say a quick welcome to the forum!!

take care
love Sarah
xx