"We can change things, though. Or rather, you can. Hope exists whether we choose to see it or not. It exists independently of us; it is an idea, and as our relentless purges have proven, you cannot kill an idea. Hope does not die, as we do not truly die."
- Sabbat Martyr, "Marneus Calgar's Barmy Army"
Hi all. I used to come here all the time while I was severely ill with anxiety and depression. Or rather, when I was incorrectly diagnosed with anxiety and depression.
It turns out that all my life, I have been affected by asperger syndrome, which has led to certain communication difficulties (and some temper tantrums, yep, teddy left the pram a few times), but most of my actual problems come from ADHD. And not just any ADHD. Oh no, I've got ADHD up the wazoo.
In fact, I'm so impaired by it, I scored a mighty 85 out of 100 on an executive functioning test. That means my mental functions are so impaired by ADHD, I achieved a score they tend to see in people who are brain damaged. I'm tempted to add some kind of humorous Beat that, trout-sniffers! remark, but apparently NMP is not a competition
Seriously, I start treatment for ADHD on Monday, possibly Strattera. There is little help for me in the real world - nobody knows an aspie who's come as far as I have, or an adult who's been diagnosed with ADHD, so just like back in the day I am blazing my own trail and finding everything out the hard way.
Hopefully this will help others in the same situation (though how anyone else would get into the weird and ridiculous situations I do is hard to imagine) and I would appreciate any support.
It's touch-your-toes time for anxiety.