When people think of OCD they think of people doing things like washing hands compulsively or counting things etc. My form is different but no less uncomfortable. I think it is OCD anyway.
The form of it I have is constantly and obsessively seeking reassurance . This is linked to my anxiety. I am constantly posting on the internet asking questions about my health - for example I developed an intrusive thought that I could make my heart stop beating by thinking about it too much and I posted on the net seeking reassurance that I couldn't do this. I constantly post questions on the net looking for advice about my life. Like why I haven't got loads of friends. Why I feel lonely sometimes. Should I go on a working holiday. Instead of making decisions for myself and accepting my life situation I am plagued by this compulsion to ask people on the internet if my life seems ok or how i should make a certain decision.
The problem is that after people have reassured me (as most people do), I feel temporary relief and then the urge to post questions again comes on even stronger. I'm basically living my life posting on the internet. It's sad but it has become so automatic that I don't even think about it while i'm doing it.
Hell, even this post is an example of reassurance but I am curious whether this is a form of OCD or not? And how the hell do I stop it. The internet is way too prevalent for me to just not use it. But I really need to stop posting on the net. It's like i'm addicted to reassurance - I even feel a sort of dopamine rush when I log into reddit and there are replies to my questions. please help me