Hello,
I have had ROCD for quite a while now, and today I had the new thought: "even if you care about and like the girl you are dating, you are probably just liking a projection that you have created, but in fact is not the actual woman you are with." This made me anxious; at the same time, it helped me to catch OCD in a move that was pretty easily detected. I even found myself saying, "Wrong move, ya dirty *******." Because I KNOW i enjoy this girl; her personality, her beauty, her presence.
Question: does anyone know how to define "checking"? And what does mental checking look like when it comes to ROCD?
Another question: does anyone ever have the thoughts, "You'd rather be with...." either a friend, a person you see, etc.? And do you ever have days where thoughts of this other person intrusively enter your brain? Just knowing there are others out there would really comfort me.
Thanks.