Grr. Another blip

[stimpy]

Can you believe it.
6 weeks of waiting to get my monsters back to school for a rest.
And what happens - A day of panic! [}]

It started well enough.
The lady turned up to collect the kids and take them to school for me.[^]
I took my medications [^]

Then I was hit by this feeling of over antisipation.
What I was over antisipating I have no idea.
I started with the palpitation thing and the shaking thing.

I told myself it was because it was something different.
It was the fact is was quiet, and calm for the first time in 6 weeks.

I then did the deep breaths and busy busy thing, keeping away from the sofa.
Thinking that keeping busy would stop me dwelling on things.
I cut the grass, trimmed the hedge, watered my veg. Had a sarnie for lunch and then passed out cold for 2 hours with pure nervous exhaustion.

When I woke up I was told that no one had collected my kids from school. [:O] The lady who normally collects them hadn't come home with them.

I remained calm, but shaking ..
I called the school, to be told they were still there. No one had been.
So Steve drove me to school and we collected the children together. [^]

By this time I felt a bit better and went shopping.

I was colouring in at 9pm and I was hit by this feeling of over antisipation, again.
What I'm over antisipating I have no idea.

Still I'm hanging in there. Breathing Deeply, Going to try and do some more colouring in for a bit.

Fingers crossed for a better day tomorrow.

Am I doing the right things ?






Love, light and Best wishes
Liz xxx
With hard work and determination and all the things you know.
The world is there for you to take. There's nowhere you can't go.


[]Scatty Eccentric & 'Poet Laureate to panic and anxiety'

[tara]

Hi Liz, sorry to hear you had a bad day, even though you couldn't wait for the children to get back to school (lol) this may have had somthing to do with you bad day, you've had then there for 6 weeks, keeping you busy, driving you mad (lol) this may have kept you stable knowing they were around. My little boy started full time school on thursday and when he went to school i had so many plans of what i was going to do, and guesss what, i didn't do any of them, i just sat there lost, bored and lonely. Hope your having a better day today ................ tara xx

[Panikki]

Hi,
i can understand your probs , i've always been the same. School holidays are always hectic and every parent dreads the mayhem let alone us anxious folks! The trouble is once they return to school all we have to focus on is ourselves and our problems. We can find tempory distractions like house-work but still we are alone with our thoughts and fears. The anticipation you describe do you think you are fearing the fearful feelings? I think thats the way i can interpret my anticipation..i sit and fear the horrible feelings of anxiety and panic.
It must have been pretty awful for you to find your kids had'nt been collected from school too, that would have made my panic sky high! Take Care of yourself ..hope things improve luv jodie xx

J Baker

[seh1980]

hello there,

The first day of schhol is always a nervous one for the kids and for the parents!! You had a lot of bad luck on the first day and considering what happened, I think you coped very well. You pulled yourself together and managed ok - well done!! I'm sure it will get easier as this change in routine becomes the norm. Take care.

Sarah [8D]

[sal]

Hi Liz

You are doing all the right things. We all think the children going back to school will give us a break but after having them at home and coping for the whole school holiday, suddenly your body tells you you can relax but the mind does the opposite. It is usual to feel how you feel, and i am glad you managed to get a couple of hours sleep to help give you some energy back.

I hope you are feeling better now hon.



Love Sal xxxxx

[stimpy]

I did eventually get to sleep.

I was colouring in and I think the exhaustion finally got to me as my mum came downstairs and told me off for having the tv on so loud.
I never heard a thing I was fast asleep.

So I went up to bed, by this time it was 5:30 in the morning.

Had another day filled with this "imaginary over antisipation" - Although not collasped in a heap yet.

Fingers crossed for tomorrow.

Love, light and Best wishes
Liz xxx
With hard work and determination and all the things you know.
The world is there for you to take. There's nowhere you can't go.


[]Scatty Eccentric & 'Poet Laureate to panic and anxiety'

[Jules31]

Hi Liz

Hope you are feeling better today. It sounds as though you suddenly had time to think and our old friend panic just came along to give you a shake.

Hang in there

Jules