Why would anything physical create such intense head crushing pain?

[Ollie28]

Fed up of this - today like almost everyday but much worse I've not even had enough cognitive power to try to think outside my own mind, I've struggled cognition wise and been in very bad pain all day, I've been stuck feeling like I take anything in at even when I'm doing tasks as small as dressing my son mentally hurts crushing pain!! Awarness problem!! I feel
Like screaming!!!!!!! all I feel like my heads being crushed inwards, I can't open out!! I'm fed up of feeling like this it's making me suicidle!

I've just tried light excercise in my garden more than 5 minutes on my punch bag to try lift my spirit and try to
Find some pride but just doing slow soft boxing and the pain become worse my clarity went more inward and my head feels like I've got no blood in it. I can barley find the mind power to think to try to concentrate,

I can no longer deal with this I'm like this constant and have no life I don't do anything because I dont think to what I do do I do in this state and it hurts and I can't take it in,

Not sure how much longer I can carry on like this.

[Mart0310]

Hi Ollie,

When were in the midst of high anxiety and panic, things often seem hopeless, that doesnt mean to say they are. Your mind is brimming with panicky thoughts, there just isnt room for anything else and that creates a feeling of 'disconnection' Have you tired distraction tecniques? listening to music, something interesting on TV or even doodling on a piece of paper can all help to ground your thoughts. Its very likely that this level of panic is causing muscles all over your body (including your head) to contract - its a protective reaction, but in turn it can be responsible for physical pain, it also exhausting!

Try some distraction for a little while and see if it helps and perhaps som breathing exercises?

[Ollie28]

I'm constantly like this almost 24/7 though from the second I wake up until the second I go sleep, it gets worse and sometimes it goes a little or can go completely just like click - but then it returns. I'm trying not to work it out in just trying to be aware of it but it's so so bad I don't have a choice. It's really really intense and painful, it's getting worse too Im sure it is. I know my awarness is getting worse and my figuring things out, I think having children is so much harder too because there's not just me to worry about, I'm one of them if my little boy or girls playing I have to join in otherwise I feel guilty them
Being alone so i can't even rest through the day I feel like a low life being out of work like this - my wife keeps telling me to forget it I'm
I'll but I can't accept it I can't live like I am feeling so how can I relax. I want to feel
Like I use to and do what I use to, a lot of the time my symptoms are so painful and my cognition is so so bad Im sure there is something else wrong for it to be so debilitating and severe. I'm so bad I cant even register what I'm being told so I can read advise or be told someting and I constantly feel like I can not no matter how hard I try take it in, it physically hurts to try do this!! Here's my life daily - sorry it's so long.

symptoms and what Im having to go through on a daily basis 24/7 14 months solid - described the best way i can.

1) 24/7 impaired cognitive, awarness and thinking problems, i can no longer physically/mentally think like i have done and been able to all my life, i have servere short term memory & awareness problems and feelings. I feel like I can not take nothing in, I don't feel the awarness of being aware of what I've just seen or heard 24/7 when I try to listen or watch to take things in it physically hurts really bad, creates a intense crushing pain and servers awarness and cognition problems. I have No awareness of satisfaction I've just completed a task or spoke/seen someone etc. If I do I can walk away & within seconds not feel aware it's just happened or what I've been doing. I feel like I'm only aware of what I'm doing at that exact time and not before it or after or future planning, I have no natural feeling of satisfaction in that sense as above. (Yet if someone asked me I could give a answer yet I don't or can't naturally re think or feel aware of it like I use to) example - Louis's had a car crash with the kids in the car, when I was told it feels like I can't connect to it my mind is not taking it in and I'm not aware and open. once i got louise and the kids home within 10 minutes of being home I had no felling of awarness it had just happened, I didn't ask how she was how my kids were I didn't take about it to me I might of well just not happened!!!!) it wasn't until
Later on that evening I took the finish out and seen the damage to the car and then it "clicked" it has happened yet even then it was like I couldn't work it out still I felt nothing mentally or physically or emotionally... It's frustrating and upsetting! IM STUCK FEELING LIKE THIS 24/7 with this awarness problem! It can intensify and also open up! Like there's a lack of something but I never feel 100% like I have all my life and it's frustrating, painful and debilitating.
I cant mentally or physically think outwards with my mind, I have to talk to myself to tell myself to try to think outwards and I can't do it, I try and it it feels like im being blocked or that part of my brain is not working no more, i can feel my mind physically pushing open trying to process the thought I'm trying to create but i can feel the pressure and pain of my mind struggling and it feels like it's being blocked or plugged in some way so i cant physically think to create ideas or think of things to do. I can only do this for seconds and I have to stop I run out of power. But like anyone I don't naturally get these type of thoughts no more - that's why I have to consciously tell myself to try to think about things that I would subconsciously "automatically" think about feel it register I've thought about it feel the emotion of it then act upon it if in what ever amount of time it takes) it's there like a idea to take my wife away or my children to a party or important date - once it's gone it's gone no awarness I even had that idea again 24/7 like this.
When I try to think I can physically feel it happening and i feel the change In parts of the brain when I change thoughts it hurts and It puts a sharp shooting sensation down the middle of my body in my chest sometimes my spine.

2) No free flowing thinking being created and awareness and connection between the two. Feels like my conscious and subconscious mind are detached from one another there not working together. I constantly feel like I'm stuck in my conscious mind, the front the of my head that's all I have to function with, the rest of my head feels dead or I'm not using it rendering my awarness & feelings & cognition.
Something will happen and to me its as if it hasn't I've no recollection of it just happening unless its brought up by someone else. My body constantly feels wrong or strange. (Not dream like as DP is described)

Small moments of "anxiousness" that in the past i would of usually felt the "butterfly's" of that adrenaline feeling in the stomach now instead I get shooting pain down my spine that hurts.

Sad emotion feeling after crying physically hurts - feels like I'm having prickly/tickling sensation through my whole body.

3) Exercise light or heavy creates physical pain in my head - the pain feels like ive not got enough blood circulating in my head or brain yet because im trying to use the muscle it pounds. I get a really painful throbbing pain like i can feel the blood trying to be pumped around my head.
Small things like playing football with my children, bouncing on a bouncy castle with my children for only a few seconds moments and I have to stop the pain is that bad.

4) Trying to concentrate & listen to someone talk for literally for only a few seconds creates crushing and sharp tense " fatigue?" pain, clarity problems & confusion, i totally lose all my mental clarity very quick and easy to the point i cant take in nothing or know whats happening or where i am, struggle to breath too. Trying to reply is impossible sometimes I have to walk away just trying to think how to reply before even finding the power to reply puts me in pain and confusion/cognition problems, sometimes Courses body nerve pain too. Nerve pain down my back. Feels like a tingling sharp pains

5) Lack of intelligence 24/7 I feel like I cant think straight or powerful it physically hurts to do so. I feel un intelligent and stupid. I can't connect to ideas or conversations with people, I can't take things in to work out a reply or to figure out what's being asked, I struggle to work things out like money in a shop, puzzles. Questions, Im scared to talk to someone because I can't have an intelligent conversation I feel like I can't work out what there telling me or asking and I struggle to know how I reply.
Constantly feel wrong through out my body, my ears feel constantly mute & crunching sounds. My cognition is constantly off.

6) I have to sit at night and lay on my bed on my own and "try" to THINK to THINK myself to try to remember what I've done all day, who I've seen, where i have been, this can be as big as seeing a specialist, a major think that's happened, visiting friends & family, major things happening through out the day that you naturally are aware has happened without looking deep inside for it. I have to TRY to remember things my children said and done, try to feel the connection and emotion towards it, TRY to tell myself think about facial expressions and things my kids said because at the time it feels to me like I'm not connected to it and it's not going in so I need to try to remember it otherwise il never enjoy my life.

7) Severe Head pressure with very bad pains which leads to sudden cognitive function and breathing difficulty. I've had moments where my body has gone completely physically numb suddenly to the point I can't feel Louise pinching me as hard as she can and at the same time I can't figure anything out as if I've become completely detached or powerless and confused yet I know it's happening to me.
Just a little concentration put me in head pain and bodily nerve pain, the longer i try the more intense it becomes, gets to the point totally in agony body and head, clarity, memory awareness are non existent, its do bad i slur words and no have no outwards connection and feel confused. It Feels like my mind and body are being deep fried, i cant breath proper - i find i end up having to take deep breathes to relieve the feeling a little, i end up feel weak enough to collapse. Head and body feeling very weak confused and disorientated, the pain is so severe it i can only describe it like it like my head is being crushed.
The pains are always there, less when my body is relaxed but it's there in the core of my head, anything to physical it becomes worse. I get tense crushing inwards pains, sudden shooting pains, sharp stabbing pain, electric shock pain, warped like feeling like my heads suddenly being drained of blood and my head feels empty and warped. Bad crunching neck and inner ear crunching.

8) Mind feels blank, no ideas just like a empty lifeless to the point I can't count in my own mind it's just switched "off"

9) I Don't physically do things or think about people or places as if they don't even exist as my mind wont mentally naturally allow me to or just create these type of thoughts so if i don't or cant think about them I'm not even aware to do them, its as if they don't exist - its a frustrating feeling this is things and people Ive spoke to and done all my life on a hourly or daily basis, regulations and mandatory checks i have to do as part of my job i no longer do but im not aware at the time im not doing this - its as if my awareness of doing them doesn't exist I'm like this with almost everything constant on things done all my life. Like there's a chunk missing out my brain - the subconscious feeling of awarness and feeling to naturally be aware to process the idea and act upon it.
It's as if my minds switched from "automatic" to "manual" I have to think to think. Think to think to act, think to tell myself to listen to then listen but all along I'm detached so can't take nothing in.

10) Almost 24/7 i feel like i have no connection between thoughts & ideas, i cant think in a certain way no more - i dont get free flowing thoughts about everyday things, (my children, hobbies, friends, activities, places ect) so i have to tell my self to try to think about those things and i cant physically do it it, if i try it hurts and it feels like the part of the mind i need to use i cant.

11) Complete lack of mind power 24/7 - its frustrating and i feel confused.
I have Constant pain in the left side of my kkneck up in to the back of my head

12) I Feel lost 24/7 & confused like I'm not sure what to do or could be doing. When driving I can't figure out best routes or remember my way out places it's as if I've not taken in the way I've come when going there, I often come out of clients houses and not be aware or feel aware of where I am working or how I got to the house what route i took or what part of the town or place I'm in. Stuck feeling like this so I just have to make everything up as I go along instead of feeling intelligent enough to just openly feel aware of such things like I use to be able to.

13) I Struggle to breath and then il notice I've not breathed for a while so I take 1 big one to get a relieve when this can be when resting or doing something physical

14) Always thirsty for a cold drink

15) Head & body being saverly crushed, sometimes feels like I'm being physically sneezed & suffocated, im in some form of pain 24/7 my eyes also go blurry and i cant physically think or feel aware of think outwardsness.

16) sudden episodes of Pain if trying to do two demanding things at once (watch my little boy and concentrate on where i am and what im doing) it starts with nerve pain through my lower body then up in to my back, my head starts to feel crushed, i lose clarity i start to feel very very weak mind power and body power i have prickling sharp Nerve pain, cant walk or talk proper i feel weak in this sudden state & i have to hold my self up or il just fall to the ground. My wife has witnessed this happen many of times and noticed the colour drain from my face. I also feel physically sick - feels like I'm dying at that moment in time.

17) My Thoughts and awareness not connected to each other - if i think of something by chance the awareness of I've thought of it isn't there like it hasn't sank in or I've even thought of it, if i go somewhere could be somewhere important literally the second i walk away i have no awareness I've been there unless by chance someone asks me.

18) I have sudden "seizure" type Attacks.....it starts with a severe uncontrollable nervousness feeling - my body trembles & shakes, i start to get nerve and head pain all through my body, i have confusion, i cant take nothing in, i cant work out what I'm doing or where i am, i have to try to think & it hurts to try or to concentrate, it feels like razor blades passing through my nervous system or my brain is being deep fried, it also feels like i have no outwards awareness and I'm forgetful, i cant breath proper, body feels tense and in pain and i slur my words if at the time im talking to someone as its happened mostly in work. Deep breath every few minutes relieves the pain then it comes back

19) Forgetful in seconds,


20) I tried a small bottle of alcohol basically trying to live some form of social life - within 3 - 4 sips it made me feel like my head and awareness is being warped and I'm under water and confused.

21) Rushing or anything fast pace physically hurts and puts my body in pain, i lose clarity & i get confused and head pains and lose all concentration and awareness & im left with what feels minimal mind power and bodily functioning.

22) Feels like i have a lack of blood in my head 24/7 - feels like im exercising a dead muscle not wanting to be exercised & it hurts

23) Every now and then my mind opens up a little, my mood will lift and open with it and il mentally and physically feel more aware, more powerful, more intelligent and i have some form of my old self back. Ive noticed
Il yawn like I've woke from some form of coma or very very deep sleep.

24) I've No awareness of feeling time - how much time has passed not be aware of what part of the day it is, what month it is without trying hard to remember.

25) Constant feeling of pain and body pressure.

26) severe head & chest crushing pressure when driving at a higher altitude to the point i can not physically breath proper, it feels like I'm being suffocated.

27) Altered Emotions & altered mood states within minutes.

28) problem solving and decision making mentally feels impossible all the time.

29) All day everyday i have to consciously talk & tell myself to think about the things i use to just naturally think about without trying, like my own kids! My wife! My family! My hobbies & interests! My friends! General every day stuff! but yet when i do then try i cant do it!!! I can feel my mind trying but it physically hurts my brain and creates tenseness, it feels like I'm feeling the part of the brain isn't working trying to open up or work, so 24/7 i don't get them natural thoughts like i use to so i forget about my kids even exist or friends, family and hobbies I've done all my life even exist and if thats how i feel how am i meant to do things if i don't mentally think and be open & aware to do them!! - this is the hardest symptom! I can deal with pain but i miss my wife, kids, friends and family 24/7!

30) If i rest and relax & do nothing i get lost in time as i don't have any ideas or awareness
Lack of intelligence - struggle to keep clear train of thought, struggle to mentally think straight and work things out.

31) it feels like my thoughts and actions are not connected - so when writing what it is I'm trying to think to write i can not transfers to paper proper, i get my words mixed up, miss spelt, confused at what it is im trying to explain or write down to make sense and i also slur my writing, at the same time my mind feels slurred and fatigued

32) Ive found i can wake feeling 80% thats cognitive function and awareness and intelligence with no pain either in my head or body - the smallest of things be it physical or mental test can trigger my body to go in to a state of pain, cognitive problems, breathing problems, it physically and mentally feels like my head along with my awareness is being crushed inwards & I'm left feeling like i cant think, focus, feel, co ordinate - literally left with basic functioning but confused and in pain.

33) i cant watch tv it creates pain trying to & i get confused trying to follow plots or story lines. I don't watch things I've watched all my life as I've no awareness they exist unless by chance i see it even then chances are il forget.
I cant play on the playstation like i have all my life either, again it puts me in pain within 5 minutes i struggle to work out what it is I'm doing or have to do. I get lost in games literally i cant recall what way I've just come from or where it is i have to go or what I've just done or should be doing.

34) waking up everyday feeling like my heads a block of concrete/sludged up and heavy with tense pain. Too much sleep makes it worse. I struggle to think clear and work out things. Very low cognition.
Feel a little "not with it" too and as if not enough oxygen in my body.
Feel like i cant push ideas and thoughts - if i do it sends sharp shooting pains through my head.

35) dizziness, co ordination and balance problems almost all day every day

37) feels like my mind and my mouth are not connected so what i think to want to say i cant say it, if i try i slur my words and get confused. It physically hurts to talk and try.

36) forget to do important basic things like eat! Pay bills, stick to important dates, i just have no awareness they even exist unless by chance they are mentioned or I'm lucky enough to have my memory jogged.

37) I CAN WAKE THE NEXT MORNING AFTER A DAY OF HAVING NOTHING! TOTALLY NO MIND THINKING POWER, NO PHYSICAL ENERGY TO THE POINT I CANT STAND OR EVEN HOLD A KNIFE & FORK OR ENOUGH ENERGEY TO EAT, PRODUCE A THOUGHT TO WAKING & FEELING 90% NORMAL - NO PAIN NO AWARENESS PROBLEMS NO COGNITION PROBLEMS FREE FLOWING AWARNESS AND FEELINGS, SMELL TOUCH AND TASTE REGISTERS WITH EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS. I FEEL INTELLIGENT AGAIN - then the slightest thing triggers it & sets my body off - little concentration or small physical task, little anxiousness like someone shouting, i try to control it but i cant i can feel my nerves starting to hurt throughout my lower body and back, my stomach starts to go tense, my head starts to feel like its being tensed and crushed, the pain in my head and kneck start and my clarity & cognitive functions start to fade away, i struggle to breath. I start to feel like i cant take nothing in and im confused and have basic function. Stuck In pain and problems cognitive functioning, i have no control over it im now stuck like this 24/7 until my body resets itself somehow.
The pain is excruciating and the cognitive problems are debilitating. I just want to feel normal again!!

The things I've tried...

Anxiety medication
Depression medication
Returning to work after 6 months of being away due to my symtoms but the concentration and physical demand makes my symptoms much painful & much worse.
Light exercise/heavy excercise
Eating healthy
Rest
Recommended health Supplements & vitamins
Relaxation
Speaking to other specialists - a neurologist @ the brain & spine foundation who gave her opinion she said it could possibly be of lack of oxygen to the brain, lack of vitamins to the brain and body, Co2 poisoning, lack of blood circulation through the body - kkneck to the brain for me to suddenly have episodes of opening up, clicking out, going in due it suddenly on small physical demand - sounds like theres a lack of something being created or maybe "miss fires"
Psychiatrists & Numerous Drs, both not 100% sure what I'm going through hence the medication trials so i was referred for therapy.
2 anxiety therapists - both did not know what I'm going through so could not help me in anyway.
Private therapy - needed a full neurological assessment before he was happy to try psycho and hypnotherapy on me.

TESTS - I've had numerous blood tests and 1 MRI scan on my brain, my MRI shown sinus problems but my Dr never followed up on that.

Ive been stuck in this state above 24/7 13 months solid with no control over what i go through - other than that 1 or 2 occasions I've instantly "clicked" back to feeling a full 100% normal for about 10 minutes each time, i can feel, think, solid thoughts no pain, no awareness problems, no memory problems. It lasted only 10-15 mins each time then the pains started again in my lower body up in to my head and my body goes back in to this state.

[Mart0310]

Im not an expert and only drawing on my own experiences, but assuming any physical cause has been ruled out, it sounds to me as you may possibly just have become very focused on a panicky interpretation.

Have you ever tried to challenge your arguments, for example

You feel your cognitive ability is low, despite this you have managed to write a very impressive explanation of how you are feeling, would you be able to do this with a low cognitive ability?

You feel your memory is poor, but at the same time you have recalled two seperate occassions where things just 'clicked'

Could it be that your so heavily focused on the thoughts that scare you, that you simply wont allow yourself to relax and let the thought flow?

I know from my own experience that this is possible, and because all your concentration is focus on a panicky thought, you literally arent taking in anyting else around you. This in itself creates a feeling of detachment. In addition the high levels of anxiety you are experiencing could be causing a level of depersonalisation - its a naturl response to fear and settles as you relax.

My feeling is, the two times you 'clicked' were where you subconciously allowed yourself to distract from your scary thoughts and relax. I would be willing to bet you spent those 10 minutes of feeling normal questioning why you felt normal?

[Ollie28]

I've never tried to challenge my thoughts tbh. Its strange because despite me feeling how I do I am still doing things that a lot of men can not (as I'm
A tradesman) even though it creates intense pain and fatigue and I dont feel like I have all my life I'm still able to complete a task like decorating or landscaping my garden even doing my job fitting fireplaces but the problem is I'm doing in the state above uncomfortably and in pain, I feel like I'm doing it all stuck with only my conscious mind - when you do a quick maths sum in your head and you use the front of your mind for them couple of seconds well
I feel like I'm stuck with only that 24/7y mind won't open back up to full open feeling awarness.
I felt the shift the night it happened my body suddenly shuck slightly and I felt I click on my head at the same time my perception changed from how I felt for 30 years to this how I feel now.
The two times I clicked out of it I was sat feeling as bad as I do now reading symptoms on a website when suddenly CLICK! I was looking around the room like my soul and self had retured to my body!! I moved house since this started so feeling like I can't take nothing in despite being in this house over 3 months when it happened I was looking around like i was taking it in for the first time seeing it - but I could feel the emotional attachment too to wat I was seeing ect, it lasted about 10 minutes then my body sunk back in to this painful state of cognition and memory and awarnesa problems and pain, I'm not sure if something triggered the change or if I thought about anything specific.
The 2nd time was after my first CBT session before hand I was a mess. I couldnt even hold a pen and write my name proper what I was thinking wasn't transfereing to my hand to write I was confused a and all sorts, in pain the rest of it - the session ended I cried out of frustration I hadn't taken in a word she had told me I left in pain stepped out the building and struggled to findy car, took a second and drove home a mess. I sat on the sofa and tried explain to my wife - I then realised like I had forgot it was my little boys 2nd bday so I just wiped away the tears of pain and frustration & started online toy shopping I was struggling Couldnt take nothing in or think of things he likes then suddenly again "click" I was looking around my front room like I have never been there before, my body was open my memory was open my awarness was open I could recall anything from anytime years or months ago freely, I could feel emotion and feel aware of where my kids were without asking myself (if I rember too) I was yawning like i had woken from a deep deep coma or sleep it was amazing I felt normal in every way! Then .....the pains slowly started then my head become tense then my cognition was fading then my memory power was going then I'm send back in to living in what I can explain as very basic mental functioning in pain.

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I use to be an intelligent, technically minded gas engineer - now I'm lucky if I can even write a few paragraphs without spelling errors and trying to make sense of what I'm trying to write and explain. Literally forgetting what it is I'm explaining as I write it my memory & awarness is that bad. It changes though literally can be minutes to hours to days power changes the feelings change - but I never feel 100% normal like I have for 30 years. It's hard and frustrating to live with.

[Mart0310]

You come across intelligent and articulate, your posts are well written and easy to understand, you also talk a lot about your life pre anxiety, doesn't that suggest that your still you? And your cognitive ability is still strong - if not stronger than it was before, the fact is that even while experiencing all this stuff you are able to communicate perfectly with me?

The survival reactions within us cause us to concentrate on what we perceive as the biggest threat. That is taking the largest part of your concentration - you are refusing to let go of those panicky thoughts even for a second. Effectively you are multi tasking, major part of your thoughts being taken with anxious thoughts and just a small part is dealing with day to day stuff, which is why it doesn't feel like it's sticking. Think back pre anxiety, your at work concentrating on a difficult job, someone comes along and says can you ring Fred later ... But you were so preoccupied with the job that you never took the message on board fully and 10 mins later you can't remember who you should call. Did this used to happen to you? Could it be the same principle except now your panicky thoughts take priority over any other?

[Carnation]

Hi Ollie 28.
I have just read your Post and you became ill around the same time as me.
There was a lot of symptoms that you have the I can relate to, but I don't know a lot about you and your Life to give the right advice.
It seems like you have tried a lot of stuff, but nothing has worked for you.
The only thing that springs to mind reading your post, is that you are still stuck in the 'repair mode' and have not progressed from that.
It is what you call an old fashioned 'Breakdown', but everyone calls is Anxiety today.
With a breakdown, you need to repair the damage first and that takes a certain way ofliving for a while. If you are still facing Responsibilities, Work, Stress, Fear, Trauma and difficult situations. The 'Repair Mode' will take longer.
I don't know your Life, so I can't comment on it, but to me and reading your Post, it seems that an incident or situation has left you and your Mind in a delayed 'Shock Mode'. All I can say at this time is listen to your Body and Mind.
If you are tired, then rest.
If you are confused or can not concentrate, then don't fight it.
If you are angry, the let it out by hitting a pillow or cushion.
If you want to cry, then cry.
If you feel like escaping or running away, then go for a walk.
It's really important to listen to what your Body and Mind are trying to tell you.
It need to repair and maybe you have been still pushing yourself too hard.

Please don't think I am being condescending, because I have been there, 24/7 in pain, desperate to get my Life back, feeling that I was out of control of my own body and mind, feeling like I was being electrocuted all of the time. Angry and weak at the same time. Could not watch TV or eat normally. Struggled to even get dressed.
So, I know how it is.

I am pleased to say that I am 80 percent back to normal now. With some blips in between, but I can lead a relatively normal Life. And you can too, in time.
Please do not give up hope, it is there, please believe me.

If I can help in anyway, I will.
Stay Strong and listen to what your body is telling you.

[Mart0310]

Strange how varying our experiences of recovery can be - for me, I didnt start to recover until I started to expose myself to life again. Not avoiding everyday life stresses told me that I wasnt as fragile as I had come to believe. The important thing for me was learning how to deal with those stresses so they didnt cause a repeat in the future.

[Carnation]

I think it depends on the amount of stress or trauma we have put ourselves through and what period of time it is before we reached that point of breakdown.
Everybody has a breaking point, but we don't always see the signs ourselves.

[Gotagetthroughthis]

Hi Ollie,

I think I spoke to you before through Private message as you have been going through very similar symptoms to me. I also still have many of these issues but right now it is not as severe as yours sounds.

Im sorry to hear you are still having such a hard time.

First of all a lot of what you have mentioned is that it feels like the brain not working properly and lack of intelligence. Well you have managed to write that huge post with the huge list and it all makes sense so let that be a slight reassurance that if your brain really wasnt working then you wouldn't be able to do that.

Secondly, I cant quite remember but what tests have you had from the doctor?

If all physical issues have been ruled out then at least that is some good news. Now there are so many things you can try to start to improve this. You just have to take one day at a time a try different things and you will eventually get some relief.

How are you today anyway?