Hi All,
I'm 30 years old and I've suffered from health anxiety for as long as I can remember. It really is awful... Unless you have experienced it you cannot understand how it effects a person's life. In all these years I haven't posted on a forum (although I've always lurked!) but today I think I need to talk with people who understand.
I've had a recurring sore throat and a feeling of something stuck in the back of my throat (like a hair or a popcorn kernel) for 4 months. I also get a discusting taste in my mouth every once in a while, it's like a rotten bad breath sort of taste, along with occasional ear pain. I've been to my GP six or more times and I've been diagnosed with everything from reflux to rhinitis. I've been taking 40mg of Omaprazole for three months along with various nasal sprays but nothing helps. I ALWAYS feel like there is something stuck in my throat and it is driving me crazy with worry.
Anyway I have recently found that I have tonsil stones. I can pull up four or five out at one time. I cannot see them easily as my tonsils are small and quite far back in my throat so it takes perseverance to get them out, and I'm never sure whether there are more lurking back there. Initially I was relieved to have an explanation for my discomfort, but my stupid health anxiety brain didn't allow that for long.
Now I'm convinced I have tonsil cancer. I've convinced myself that all this discomfort and pain cannot be caused by something as insignificant as a tonsil stone and even if it were, why does the feeling of something being stuck there never go away after I pull the little blighters out? I also stupidly looked at a website where throat cancer sufferers list their symptoms and one sufferer had exactly the same symptoms as me... He thought it was a tonsil stone at first.
The feeling of something stuck is always on the left side, but the soreness and tonsil stones occurs on both sides. I also have some kind of allergy and a post nasal drip, not sure if that matters... And I was a smoker up until recently which is definitely adding to my anxiety.
Would cancer present like this? Has anyone else had a similar problem with tonsil stones? I'd really appreciate any insight at this point. I can't talk to my husband, he'll only worry.
I have a two year old daughter and I feel like I'm being selfish worrying about myself all the time but I honestly can't help it. What kind of example am I setting being a nervous wreck all the time?