hey you guys, sorry if I sounded so really very depressed - you know how it is sometimes when you feel like you hit rock bottom and just get grumpy and sad and hopeless.
@xvolatileheart really sorry if I snapped at you (not sure if one says that in english), it is just I really admire your strength to keep on studying - to me with all these crazy thoughts and the DR going on I had the feeling that even uni is not real and just too much, it seemed so pointless just like everything else I saw.
I guess I'm just in this really heavy life-crisis, living with my mom again who is really worried about me and tries to help me by making plans moving back in with her and maybe getting a low-level job somewhere in this area which is exactly what I NEVER wanted which makes it even worse and hopeless. Really sorry everyone, depression is really kicking in and this is certainly not the place.
@xvolatileheart do you think that your anxiety etc. has to do with you being a doctor? Really sorry to hear that. I know the feeling, me being an incapacitated philosophy and culture student atm. And wow, 3 years. Really amazed by your strength!