Hello anyone reading this and thank you if you are. I am having a bad time right now and really need some help. I went back to my functional medicine doctor today and spent a fortune on supplements. I am so afraid of taking anything (even vitamins) for fear of it making me feel weird. But my husband said we spent all this $ just take it. So I took a supplement meant to help anxiety and stress. I also read reviews saying it really helps. Within minutes of taking it I started freaking out. Full blown panic attack! So afraid it was gonna make me feel weird and cause me to panic to the point of acting on my fears. (Which are self harm at this time). I went into the bathroom and tried making myself throw up which didn't really get much out but made me feel slightly better. I do mean slightly because I was still asking my husband to take me to the Hospital cuz I was freaking so bad.
Anyhow it's been a couple hours and I have mostly calmed down but thoughts are still causing me some anxiety and I'm feeling super depressed because I don't know what to do anymore. I can't take meds because I convince myself they are making me worse. Does anyone else do this? I feel like there is no answer for me and I'm lost. I really just want to be ok. I don't want to be like this anymore. I'm so afraid of what's going to happen to me. What can help? I've read imp of the mind, any other suggestions. Please imagine your lowest point and how desperate you wanted help, I'm there. Please anything you have to offer me I would greatly appreciate.