Feeling really low this weekend and also panicky. I hate Mother's Day nowadays. Sunday is also my wedding anniversary so I am hoping I can put aside my mood and enjoy Sunday when my husband comes back from his work trip.
Everybody is posting on facebook about their moms, quotes, pictures, etc. It's just too much. Maybe I'll avoid it. Also have family calling me because they care, which is nice of them and I am lucky to have people who care, but sometimes I don't want to even think about it. It's like... I would be better able to not think about it this weekend if they weren't sending me articles about grief and loss too.
I know pushing it away is bad in the long run but sometimes I just don't want to deal with the feelings anymore. Sometimes I feel like this date is harder than her actual birthday or death anniversary because Mothers Day is everywhere - TV, restaurants, newspapers, magazines, online, etc.
Maybe I'll just work in the yard.