Hi,
I have developed an obsession with my bowel movements and I worry at I will not be able to make it to the bathroom in time.
It started a few months ago when I was on a bus journey and I needed to use the bathroom but I couldn't do so for a prolonged period of time. Due to this I experienced some distressing symptoms and ever since that time I have had an obsession with my bowel movements.
If I go anywhere I need to empty my bowels beforehand just in case I need to use the bathroom when I am out and when I am out I need to use the bathroom again to make sure my bowels are still empty. If I go somewhere new and I always try to find a public toilet and I cant find one or it is closed I start to panic. When I go on a journey such as on a bus I have to make sure to empty my bowels beforehand otherwise I will start to feel anxious during the journey. Sometimes I strain to have a bowel movement just so I know that my bowel is empty and that I will not need to go to use the bathroom.
This obsession is starting to get out of hand and I now spend a lot of my time thinking about it.
Does anyone else have any experience of this?
And if so what is the best way to deal with it?