Hello everyone.
I'm almost at my wits end as after such a good run of being pretty much HA free, it has come back and hit me like a car wreck.
For about the last week I have been feeling absolutely knackered. I mean so, so tired. Yawning loads. But I have had an almost constant feeling of lightheadedness and at times dizzyness. I've had a couple of episodes of what I can only describe as head rushes when I have been either crouched or bent down then stood up. Really not nice. But on top of this I have had a feeling like you get when you have not eaten and you feel weak and a bit jittery/shakey. And if thats not enough, I've had for the last few days what feels like a tension headache that just wont go away. Its not severe, just nagging away enough so as I know its there.
I feel such a failure each time I have to post because I know most other people in the world just get on with their lifes. I feel annoyed with myself and generally down.
I went back to see my counsellor yesterday and told her about the fact that my wife and I are having a baby. We had a long talk and I broke down and told her how scared I feel about it, how much the news has brought back the pain of losing my Dad and that I feel ABSOLUTELY FULL of fear about most things. I dont mean that as a throw away comment either, I'm pretty much two steps away from feeling fear or anxiety about one thing or another. I wanted so badly to tell her about my physical symptoms and how I'm completely terrified that it is something seriously wrong with my brain. I'm absolutely bricking it right now and hoped for some words of encouragement from anyone.
Ive just started back at Uni and apart from my head being ALL OVER THE PLACE, I'm feeling like crap. Aching and feel like I could sleep for a week. My Mam and wife have said that there are lots of viral infections around at the moment that can make you feel like this but I cant help thinking that they only say things like that to make me feel better and ease my mind.
Any advice would be welcome.
Thanks
Dan
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I want to go up to my anxiety, smile, put my arm around it and say to it caringly, 'Hey! How are you? How's your day been?'
Then, just as its about to answer me, I wanna throw a sack over it and give it a hiding within an inch of its life.
That would be nice.