Hiya everyone! Basically when I was 18 I couldn't stop being sick and I couldn't leave my bedroom. I had no idea what was going on and thought I was dying. I would get into a complete state if I was left on my own. I eventually got to the doctors who diagnosed me with GAD and I was given anti depressants and CBT. This helped me overcome 'bad thoughts' and also the fear of leaving my house. After CBT I never carried on pushing myself but felt mentally a lot better at home, going out with family and friends but I still wouldn't get the train, a job and also wouldn't go far from home if I was on my own due to the fear of being anxious. I'm now 23 and have had a massive set back. I can't even get myself down to the doctors. I need a injection which has been booked in twice but both time I have avoided it. I'm paying for online CBT again which I'm hoping will help again. It feels a lot different this time because I actually know what is wrong with me. I also know the more I avoid things the worse the fear will become etc etc. I moved in October (with my mum). I do think this may have contributed to it being triggered as well because everywhere and everyone is new. My biggest concern is that I've nearly become homebound and I know the only way to go forward is to face the fear but my physical symptoms seems to go through the roof and is scares the living c**p out of me. Also I'm sick of the feeling that I need my mum to come with me everywhere (it makes me feel like I am 5). On top of that I can see that this is all stressing her out then I feel guilty and ashamed. I'm hoping people on here maybe will have some good advice how to mentally and physically over come the avoidance behaviour. Also I hope I can help others who maybe having 'bad thoughts' and/or health anxiety as I managed to over come this side of it.
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