I'm 15, and have never felt worst. I have been having very mild intrusive thoughts and dreams where i can see a close family member, usually my mom, dead or hurt, and it was my fault. It scares me so so bad. I had it once before several months ago when my family came to the conclusion that I was mildly depressed. My mom went out and bought a bottle of pills called, St. John's Wort, a drug my sister had taken as a teenager too due to depression. She warned me not to stop, and start taking it again, as she once did. I stopped for about a week and took it again and got intrusive thoughts like how I explained, and so my sister told me to stop, because she had the exact same thing I had. So I stopped for a few months, and recently took it againabout a week ago. But then i stopped taking it again for about 2 days and thats when the thoughts started again, a couple days ago. They are starting to go away... should I just stop this drug for good?