Hi all
It certainly has been a while (for me) since I have been here.
I apologise for disappearing but I have had a lot going on in life. Worst Year Ever to put it mildly.
A lot has changed so thought I would post an update...hopefully some of my friends are still around.
So, pretty much a year ago I became acutely unwell with my depression. I was in and out of psych wards and A & E for overdoses until February. I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.
My breakdown destroyed me, I started again from scratch. I ended my marriage after having an affair. I haven't been fair on my husband at all. He gave his all to me and my health. Completely devoted. But to be honest I think I settled when I got with him....so it was always going to end....an I hope we will both be better off for it...I have been so far.
So yes I had an affair....something that haunts me. The only positive from it is the fact I fell completely in love. And I am still with the man in question....he has been amazing. Yes we have had ups and downs....I am still quite unstable so he has put up with a lot.
I was homeless from March to May.....and to be honest I am only just settled in my new flat hence me not being around.
I have taken a career break for a year.
I am awaiting therapy....apparently 6 month wait from now.
I am actually trying to resolve my demons rather than bottle them up.
I still have my terrible days.....but now I do actually have OK days....which is a miracle.
Hopefully I can start to rekindle relationships that I abandoned when I had given up on the world...
Jac