This is my first post. I've had health anxiety for many years along with embryo phobia. The severity of my health anxiety wavers as I've had therapy and have my ' crutches' in place for when I'm having a wobble. I have suffered with panic attacks in the past which led to acrophobia. Luckily that is ok now, although when I feel poorly it creeps back in. Anyway in the past couple of years I've had ovarian cancer, brain tumour, Ms, cervical cancer, the list goes on. Had numerous blood tests and scans all came back fine. I am now suffering with lump in my throat, burping and pain in my upper back and a bit of acid. So of course I have stomach/oesophageal cancer. All these years I've had lots of tests but the one I refuse to have is an endoscopy. I can't bear the thought of a tube down my throat making me gag. I know they have sedation etc but even so, I've read the horror stories. So I'm sure my anxiety about it all is making my symptoms worse. I have been given some ppis by my doc, but scared of taking just in case they make me ill. I hate this, it's a vicious circle. Any advice or help will be greatly appreciated.