Well I'm having an awful morning today. Woke up about 6.30 and my anxiety was waiting for as usual. Churning stomach, shallow breathing the worrying thoughts....how will I survive today, what if I don't get better, what if I can never work again !
I feel sedated and anxious again I need to discuss this with my psychiatrist when I see her cos it's a horrible feeling and it makes me more anxious. It quite surreal like I'm in a dream world and would love to curl up and have a nap but my mind won't let me it's like it's scared to let go and let me sleep, maybe it's a control thing.
Yesterday I had another ok afternoon and evening I even managed to go out for a meal with friend but I did rather feel like I was a goldfish watching from inside a bowl. They really don't understand they think because I look ok I must be better and it's hard to explain that I may look well but my mind is a mess....if only they could read it