well, Anxiety .....ive allways had it. for as long as i can remember its part of who i am i just accepted that for a long time untill the last few years it started to dawn on me that something just wasnt right. apparantly it wasnt normal to pick at your fingers untill they bleed, or constantly hold your breath and clench your jaws. i got to the point where i couldnt even make a decision about dinner without second guessing it 10 times.
for so long i felt like i was just going along with it and my rollercoaster of emotions made the decisions for me. two weeks before my 21st birthday i had a panic attack, just after then i went on losec (omezaprazol) to which i now realised treated the symptoms of anxiety - heartburn, reflux. to make matters worse my husband and i moved to Australia from NZ just over a year ago, which was the crunch time for me, it threw me into a spin.
now im 23 (were settled into australia) and 3 months ago i finaly went to my gp with a list of daily syptoms i have and feelings i get. now i go to therapy and take venlofaxine. im so glad i did because its helped me to open my eyes,im calmer and i feel the real me has finaly been allowed to come foward. when i take a deep breath it actually relaxes me - in the past nothing would.
my husband helps me alot, i tell him dont try to understand it cus i dont! just try to accept it.
I know im not an extreme case here but what a releif it is to be diagnosed, the weight lifted off my shoulders when my doc told me.. no its not normal..its not in your head. now when i have a bad day i say to myself "i have an anxiety disorder, thats why i feel crappy today" and it gives me a sence of normality knowing others are just like me.
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