So partially for myself as some sort of thing to return to when I feel I'm making no progress and partially for those who are still in this 100% (and I suppose, also seeking support and reassurance from those who have been through this...)
I've been dealing with DP/DR for a few months now. Unfortunately I STILL haven't had the CBT I was meant to have (and my GP says she has seen many people like me really benefit from it) but the following things have gone:
*solipsism
*nihilism (everything is objectively pointless, etc)
*reductionism (only seeing things as atoms and molecules, nothing more)
*most of the derealisation (things are still sometimes freaky but it's not 24/7)
*MOST of the suicidal ideation
*obsessions over things like infinity and time (most of the time)
Unfortunately the following remain:
*I still don't feel like "me"
*pane of glass between self and real world
*fatigue, tiredness, no motivation
*"as if" acting - it's as if I'm acting when I'm trying to be me
*numb
*worries about permanence (hence why I'm writing this!)
*obsessions and terror over death (mortality in general)
So... looking here, it's clear that the really severe derealisation and some of the depersonalisation is reducing, and that whilst the DP remains, it isn't as bad as it used to be. This is a good sign, and means that I should continue to make more improvements.
For those that have been through this, this is a good thing, right? Did those that have recovered also do it slowly like me? Did it take longer for the DP to go than the DR?
For those that haven't, take hope in that the really debilitating stuff really does reduce with time (and for me, with medication too) - and hopefully at some point down the line I can write a post and re-assure you all that the rest does go too.
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