I started having anxiety and panic attacks 3 years ago after a very stressful period in my life. I was put on medication and after 2 years was doing so well that my doctor weaned me off the meds. The past year has been a complete nightmare though because my dad passed away suddenly after being very ill with heart problems. since his death I have never had 1 anxiety free day. Every single day is a struggle. I am in a constant state of anxiety and panic. I don't remember the last time I woke up in the morning and just felt amazing. No one even knows what I am going through because I just act completely normal on the outside but inside it's like torture. I have been experiencing extreme health anxiety where every day that I wake up I have another ache or pain or I feel sick to my stomach. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I just want to feel normal again. I am typing this and I can't stop crying bcos today I just feel so hopeless. woke up again feeling ill, headache, nausea and heightened anxiety.