It's back!!!
Okay so I was diagnosed with postnatal depression and health anxiety in May. I started my tablets (propranolol and citalopram) I was feeling good! Counselling was going okay, we worked on my sleep phobia and Managed to sleep without help! I finished my 12 weeks and I felt like me again. No panic attacks, no waking up in the night screaming I was having a heart attack and that I was about to die that very moment of my partner didn't call an ambulance!
Well 5 weeks ago my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 bowel cancer! She had absolutely NO symptoms and now she's been given months to live! I was incomplete shock and people commented that it could start me worrying again.
I felt like I was coping with the panic until last week when I forgot to put my repeat in at doctor and had to go from the Thursday-Monday without my tablets which I think have become my security 'when I take them I'll be okay, everything will be fine' i started taking them again Monday and today is Sunday and I'm now sat here feeling my pulse, feeling dizzy, too scared to sleep and too scared to move! I don't know why this is happening to me again! I started taking my tablets again! Why have they stopped working? I need them! I need them back. I haven't got anyone to help me throug this time, my mum was my rock last time rushing me to A&E and sitting up with me when I was too scared to sleep! She always believed me (my partner tells me it's in my head and I'm fine) I feel like I've taken steps back and this time without my mums support I won't get through this time! How can I burden someone with my imaginary illnesses when they have a real one going one! Oh I'm just freaking out and I really apologise for ranting on but I actually feel a little calmer getting this all out.
Has anyone stopped their tablets and started again and had things go back to normal?
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