Finding it hard to work- anyone else??

[dizzy daisy]

Hi I've suffered with HA and general anxiety since I was 16 and sm now 39. At first it was crap to deal with but I muddled my way through college and uni which was difficult with the anxiety. Anyway I had s spell where it was do bad I was agoraphobic which was the pits and I couldn't work, I eventually got work that I could go from home and then built myself up yo working full time again. For the last 12 years I've lived virtually a normal life with anxiety cropping up occasionally, but I've controlled it quite well so no time off work etc.
This last 4 weeks I've been terrible and I feel so sad and mad about it. I've had s stressful few years with one thing and another, I've lost a few close friends and relatives, had relatives quite unwell and a few miscarriages etc, but despite this I seem to have coped ok on the whole. About 4 weeks ago I had a migraine with aura which always frighten me, it left me washed out and I then started with the panicking. I went to walk in and they said I probably had a virus, GP requested bloods which panicked me even more and it totally spiralled out of control. I was off work around 3 weeks because I'm just a mess and last week went back goin half days. I'm so upset and annoyed at the situation. Has anyone rise had trouble working and dealing with this anxiety? Xxxx

[lior]

I've had trouble working before, yes. I now work four days a week because I can't cope with 5 days a week. A few months ago I had trouble concentrating the day through because I was so anxious. I would just work when I could.

I'm a bit of a mess right now but not as much as before. It's affecting my emotions at work - I've got out of control and have been lashing back at my managers when they've put me into awkward positions. Working while I've been a bit unstable meant that I acted a bit unprofessionally at work, and it's made things even worse for me. Maybe it's a good thing to work less when you need to get your balance back.

[dizzy daisy]

Thanks for your reply. It's not great working when you feel this crap eh. I've been coping generally ok but having some panicky feelings now and then. You're right I just have to take it one step at a time and hopefully I can build myself up again. Xxxx