I honestly think anyone who answers your questions is not helping you. From reading your posts it seems that you're slightly addicted to reassurance, but that now the 'high' lasts for a shorter and shorter amounts of time.
I don't know if you are one of those anxious people who think worrying will actually stop bad things from happening or if your anxiety is just out of control but I do think this site isn't helping you and so I, like some others on here, am not going to be replying.
Good luck. I really hope you get well.