I only ever stuck at 20mg. I found that worked. Anxiety is a pain in the bum. You can give yourself as many talking too's as you want, but it doesn't help. I found it quite hard to explain to people how it felt, like being terrified all the time and having no where to run too, yet you don't want to run. My husband loves mountain biking, he goes all over the UK to ride up and down mountains and he lives for that adrenalin rush, I use to say to him 'what you live for is what I want to get rid of'. In fact he was mountain biking when he had his heart attack, he carried on for a further 20 mins before he realised something was seriously wrong and had to stop. Bloomin' men!
I never had a counsellor, I did get referred to one, but by the time my appointments came through I was well on my way with the Prozac so it was a waste of time as I didn't feel I had any problems. But mine was a cognitive behavioural therapist. I found the meditating worked better for me. Apparently there is a good App I was reading about the other day called Headspace. It came recommended by a doctor.
I am at work this afternoon. I am fortunate that my husband has a well paid job so I have been able to stay at home with the kids (actually, I think it's having too much time on my hands which caused the anxiety, like, too much thinking time) but my little job is a volunteer job. So I will be working in the shop this afternoon. Then tonight I am out. But at this moment I don't really want to go ... can't say why, just that I would rather be tucked up in bed, with a book or the tv with a hot chocolate.
Your weather sounds a bit like ours, we might get one or two good days in the summer. At the moment it just rains and rains. I can't wait for blue skies and warmth.
Hope you're having a good day, with little anxiety and feeling positive!