Hi everybody, a bit of background i'm a 35 year old married guy with 2 girls aged 8 and 10.
The end of last year had real bad depression, have had a couple of smaller episodes in the past, but felt really awful this time round. The stress of it all got so bad that at xmas i started having seizures, fortunately not epilepsy as suspected.
I'm now on the waiting for list for CBT, have seen a psychiatric social worker once, and will see again in a few weeks. The thing is now I'm looking through some help material he gave me, I'm finally realising that it's anxiety that is the real problem and has been for years. I know I shouldn't be going over and over things, but it has had a real effect on my life, making me do things I shouldn't have done and not do things I should have done. I suppose most people that know me, would just say I'm shy but I wish it was that simple. I'm trying not to worry about the past, but I'm scared what the future holds and whether I'll ever get over these feelings, and start to live a normal life.
Anyway I'll stop babbling now and thanks for listening, steve