I've been on here so many times with this same issue and today I had a kick in the face (not literally).

I was due to see an agent about my acting and I cancelled 3 times. All were genuine reasons and now he refuses to see me as he has alarm bells. I can't blame him at all as I think he has good judgement at the moment but it's made me feel awful.

Suddenly, it's made me think of the other things I've cancelled numerous times and I feel terrible. Thankfully it was a small agency that I don't think I was TOO bothered about but my issue is that I'm scared of doing anything anymore in case I cancel.

I just don't seem to know myself at all and that's what's terrifying me. It's like I'm 2 people.

I have cancelled so many things...