Re: I'm embarassed that I'm doing a Masters Degree in CBT and I still have SA
I'm not really in your position, but it's just awful when people are nasty in upper level courses like that.
I'm currently working on my second degree and am shy in class, but never have I had a course where the teacher wanted us to break up into small groups and I wasn't able to get in one - people were always more than willing to let me join. Last semester, though, I was sitting next to a girl and her two guy friends and asked if I could partner up with them as there wasn't anyone else nearby...the girl just rolled her eyes and they flat out ignored me. I ended up just doing the assignment solo and handing it in. It wasn't a high stakes assignment - I can't understand how people could be so rude.
Ultimately, in your case, I think having dealt with anxiety yourself will make you more relatable to the people you want to help. My current therapist for example has taken the same medication I'm so worried about now and understands anxiety as well and it has really helped me to open up to her and be more honest.
I do think you need to find a way to get yourself some support - therapy, doctors, etc. - and try to feel a little more stable yourself before you actively start advising others. I know you can find a way out of this, and I know too that once you do you'll be an awesome therapist. You just need to find your way out of the maze before you start leading others out.
Is there a way you can find a new therapist to talk to? Or someone else to get the ball rolling? I promise they won't judge you - people in the mental health field often see therapists themselves. I remember someone once telling me it was encouraged as it can be a stressful profession. Anxiety, particularly social anxiety, is very common and no one will think less of you for having it and wanting to find a way to cope with it - that's very strong, and commendable.
And hey - at the end of the day you'll have a much better insight than those nasty girls in your class anyway.
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