Why does no one understand me ?
*seems long because I spaced between BUT I promise this is a quick read through*
I'm so tired of feeling alone with my anxiety. I feel like it's the end of the world For me right now.
I've been so worried about my headaches I've been getting daily for the past almost week.
Started from hitting my head last Tuesday night..
Then I was excessively worrying about brain bleeding.
A day or 2 later I stared having a sore back of the head when laying down and a headache when I first woke up but went away very quickly as soon as I woke up. Random head pains.
Friday I got a migraine (throbbing temples) which had me so very worried about my brain bleeding.
Since Saturday I've been getting migraines daily. Usually one sided and a throbbing pain.. Pretty textbook migraine I'd say. They come at night or after waking up.
I've been crying at least once daily about this and it feels like it makes the migraine worse.
It's since Saturday night I've been worried about a brain tumor now.
I am so pissed off with myself and I'm miserable and just want to sleep all day because I'm tired of being scared about brain bleeds and brain tumors.
You guys have no idea how much I wish I never bumped my head because I wonder if this all would have even started. I didn't have this anxiety about my head until after knocking it.
I feel easily emotional and I get angry with everyone quick because I'm so unhappy with myself and my fear I'm dying from a brain tumor. Im starting to get back to the dark place of not wanting to do anything except sulk in my own pathetic self pity.
I wish I wasn't so doctor phobic and could go talk about this and prayfully be told I'm fine because I know i wouldn't worry anymore.
Those of you who had your symptoms checked and told your fine yet still are worrying you should feel lucky you were checked out and actually told you were fine. That's all I wish to hear.
My boyfriend doesn't seemed concerned with my headaches and says I'm doing this to myself with stress & worry. He may be right but part of me hates hearing that because how can stress cause this??? And how could he understand ? I feel like he doesn't care but I'm so self consumed with this fear it's causing me such soul sucking unhappiness. I wish he would show more concern because when he just says I'm fine and it's stress I wanna rip my hair out.
I normally don't get migraines until before my period and during it. That's not due until weeks from now. I wills also get a throbbing migraine after getting really upset and crying like say a fight with my boyfriend.
These migraines just feel like they are coming for no reason ! I've been plenty anxious and worried about other symptoms before and I never got migraines like this.
I can't stop thinking about a brain tumor or brain bleeding.. More so the first one now but it was very seriously the 2nd one a few days ago.
I'm a mixture of scared, worried and just seriously exhausted and frustrated.
Yes I googled headaches and read about migraines and that seems like what is going on here but why?! Why now and why never before with all the other anxiety I've had ? That's why I'm so scared. It said some things to worry about would be
A change in headache patterns ( this is a change for me!)
Worsening headaches (mine have been going on for a few days tho! Not sure if they're worse)
Personality changes (I've been miserable and emotional and easily upset)
Tender painful temples (my temples throb hence a migraine I thought??)
Those are a few of the warning signs I associated with and I'm terrified.
Not sure if anyone will have anything to say to me but I wish I could get some replies and some smart rational advice or ANYONE whose has experienced my symptoms.
Ugh please . Don't view without leaving a comment whether it's warm wishes or whatever I really need to snap outta this . God is it really a tumor ? A bleed? What's happening to me !
And why do I have to be so scared of doctors! I hate this.
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