Well after a relatively good day with only a few down moments it all went downhill this evening. Had a job interview that went well, told my ex 'yes I'm still living there'. No where to go and I own half the house. And she didn't really comment, just went on about what she was doing. So that kinda sent me under and basically pissed on my chips.
So I spent the evening upstairs in the dark staring into space. And now I'm still here wondering what to do.
I know my actions have hurt her but I feel like she wants to punish me or hurt me so I know how she feels. I don't think she realises how much I am hurting. She's just put this huge barrier up that I can't break through.
What can I do? Is it really over after 15 years? It's bad enough loosing everything else but this is really hard for me. I'm now thinking of going to hypnotherapy to have them remove the emotional connection so I can move on with my life, the only thing is I don't know if it's to soon and is there a chance we could sort out our differences. After all it's only been about 6 weeks.
Sorry everyone... I'm rambling again.