Really need a hug today

[CG1964]

I'm new on the forum and finding my way around with this overwhelming guilt and anxiety I feel almost 24/7. I'm taking meds but not seeing much relief yet and now I've got Ativan for my panic attacks but I'm too scared to take them. My life has fallen apart in the last six weeks and all I want is for it to go back to the way it was before. There are too many people depending on me and I'm failing at everything right now - seems I have no control over my life, what is left of it - I don't know what to do, my dr says I have to wait to get the meds straight to start cbt and that seems so far away.
Perhaps all I need is some positive support, but I'm afraid to admit to anyone other than my husband what is going on and my anxiety and panic is freaking him out because I have always been the strong one. And now I'm a wreck.
It's 10:30 am and I've been up for 6 hours already with a weight in my chest and racing thoughts - one day at a time, I know but right now one minute at a time seems all I can handle.
Thanks for listening to my rant - can't burden my husband much more. xo CG

[Carnation]

Your Post sounds so familiar to me when I first had my breakdown 2 years ago.

One day at a time, is exactly how you should look at it.
I can hear that you could be suffering from Depression too.
That fuels the anxiety and then bounces back to the depression and so on.
The Meds will help you to manage this. Although I don't take Meds myself, because it is one of my phobias, my partner does and he finds they help him a lot.

Try not to be hard on yourself. We have to go through a lot in life and YES, you do have a life in the future, it's just a period in your life now that seems to feel like the end.

Sending you hugs

[Carolin]

Carnation that is a beautiful reply.

I echo everything already said and also send

[pulisa]

When many people depend on you and you are overwhelmed with terror it is really hard-especially when those close to you freak out because you are unwell. It places a massive burden on you.

You do need positive support and your husband needs to understand this. This won't go on forever but it can seem like it at the time..

Sending you warm wishes xx

[CG1964]

Thanks everyone for the hugs and concern. It means so much to me that there is a community out there of people who understand what I am going through and can offer advice and encouragement when I need it most.

I'm going to get through today, and then tomorrow will be another day.

[Magic]

Sending youCG1964 x

[CG1964]

Thanks for the hugs - much appreciated and valued!

[Notme]

Feel for you Hun... Here's one from me..

[pretty flamingo]

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now, it sounds like such a difficult place to be. I hope that things get at least a little easier soon. Sending hugs your way.