I'm due Friday I'm sat up in bed with thoughts running through my head got uncontrollable eye and face twitching I'm guessing it's because I'm tiered and anxious :( .
I have a fear of giving birth I got health anxiety severe health anxiety after my second birth I hemmoraged I tore bad and I had retained placenta which was left and nobody believed me due to the midwife Writting it was a fragment so after telling everyone I was very poorly and hemmoraging more I was told each time it's normal ect I was then given the wrong antibiotics by my doctor that wouldn't treat a infection like I had I started to feel more poorly but again told it's normal after suffering I passed a huge amount of placenta and told that's it told my uterus had gone down and I was fine so I believed them a couple days later I felt even worse and I hemmoraged again this time I could hardly stand up I was dripping through with sweat I just felt out of it and I could hardly move I got sent to hospital where I was put on the right medication through drip and then took off to theater I was on a drip of different antibiotics and honestly after the operation and medication I felt amazing compared to what I did so I got on with life as normal but I started to not be able to breathe properly and semi blacking out I blamed the Meds I got given to take home so everytime I had to take the Meds 6 lots a day of two types I would have a panic attack .
After I finished the Meds blacking out not been able to breathe still was happening and I drive myself mental Googling and beliving they was more placenta or that the surgery did something to me ect it took doctors 4 months nearly to realise I had anemia and that's what was causing my daily blacking out my daily palps my daily breathing problems and my blue nails!
I don't understand how they missed it I was Googling and because I actually diagnosed myself before the doctor I began to Google everything well now I'm due I should be happy excited I'm scared it will happen again or worse I have panic attacks thinking about labour when I know it's going to happen anyways :, ( sorry I needed to share my story more than anything it helps me as I don't have anyone to talk to about it as nobody is helping there replies are you'll be fine or don't worry