Fear of giving birth

[stars22]

I'm due Friday I'm sat up in bed with thoughts running through my head got uncontrollable eye and face twitching I'm guessing it's because I'm tiered and anxious :( .
I have a fear of giving birth I got health anxiety severe health anxiety after my second birth I hemmoraged I tore bad and I had retained placenta which was left and nobody believed me due to the midwife Writting it was a fragment so after telling everyone I was very poorly and hemmoraging more I was told each time it's normal ect I was then given the wrong antibiotics by my doctor that wouldn't treat a infection like I had I started to feel more poorly but again told it's normal after suffering I passed a huge amount of placenta and told that's it told my uterus had gone down and I was fine so I believed them a couple days later I felt even worse and I hemmoraged again this time I could hardly stand up I was dripping through with sweat I just felt out of it and I could hardly move I got sent to hospital where I was put on the right medication through drip and then took off to theater I was on a drip of different antibiotics and honestly after the operation and medication I felt amazing compared to what I did so I got on with life as normal but I started to not be able to breathe properly and semi blacking out I blamed the Meds I got given to take home so everytime I had to take the Meds 6 lots a day of two types I would have a panic attack .
After I finished the Meds blacking out not been able to breathe still was happening and I drive myself mental Googling and beliving they was more placenta or that the surgery did something to me ect it took doctors 4 months nearly to realise I had anemia and that's what was causing my daily blacking out my daily palps my daily breathing problems and my blue nails!
I don't understand how they missed it I was Googling and because I actually diagnosed myself before the doctor I began to Google everything well now I'm due I should be happy excited I'm scared it will happen again or worse I have panic attacks thinking about labour when I know it's going to happen anyways :, ( sorry I needed to share my story more than anything it helps me as I don't have anyone to talk to about it as nobody is helping there replies are you'll be fine or don't worry

[Abeechx]

I have severe health anxiety and also hemoraged with my daughter.
I lost 1000mls which is not life threatening but severe enough for
A blood transfusion. I know how you feel and I understand how you are very anxious about labour again. I was so determined with my labour to do it all naturally and I had no drugs no gas and air absolutely nothing! She came
Out so quick that I believe that's why I had the hemmorage as I was pushing like mad!!
My husband and I are now planning on having another baby and I'm scared incase the same thing happens again! ! ! It keeps playing on my mind but I really want another baby and I don't want a planned c section as that makes me terrified even more than natural labour. All I can say girl is be strong and just COPE! That's all we can do at the end of the day and just remember your not alone I am In the same
Boat and have panic attacks daily!!!! I'm currently seeing a
Cbt therapist and struggling. Sorry for rambling on but I want you to remember your not alone and don't be scared you can get through this!!!! Think about your beautiful baby inside.

[KatiePink]

I've not got any children but have a huge fear of child birth due to these reasons above, scares the living hell out of me and convinces me something really wrong would happen. I want a family so badly but i can't imagine being able to carry my child knowing what's to come i think the fear would be too much.

Wish i could give helpful advice but i'm sure there are plenty of mums on here who can relate and hopefully put your mind at ease x