My father was diagnosed with cancer on Xmas Eve. Since then my life went into meltdown. Only child and an anxious mother so I felt a lot of pressure. Dad had his life saving operation at the end of January then advised radiotherapy and chemotherapy for 6 weeks.
I have suffered with anxiety since the age of 10 and have had several depressive episodes since then, finally culminating in a serious breakdown 4 years ago. Citalopram helped me through the breakdown and I felt well enough to come off the drug in February 2015. Then my dad got cancer.
I tried to cope without Citalopram for as long as I could but I started not sleeping and spiralled down, anxiety all night and the panic attacks began.
I started on the Citalopram at the beginning of March 2016. The first two weeks were hell, at night felt like I was floating, never really sleeping, my colleague at work called me the walking dead!! My appetite went (no bad thing in my case as overweight), I felt sick, the anxiety in the morning was really bad. I started with 5mg for a few days, then upped to 10mg after that for a few days and 2 weeks in upped to 20mg.
After 2 weeks, I noticed a lift in my mood but the anxiety was crippling. I was still going to work every day but the knot in my stomach was terrible. Work were unsympathetic, had my appraisal in my first 2 weeks of taking Citalopram - needless to say it went badly!
Saw the doctor after 4 weeks and he recommended upping the dose to 30mg. Was concerned the side effects would come again, which they did but to a lesser extent. 5 weeks after I started taking the drug, I felt my mood lift and now 8 weeks in I feel back to normal!
All I will say to all those who have started this drug, please stick with it, it does get better. When I was going through the side effects and feeling the badness would never end, it does end!
I am more positive than ever, the anxiety has gone and nothing phases me anymore - I am sleeping very well, I have joined a gym and I feel I could handle anything life throws at me - I am completely different to the shell of a person I was 2 months ago.