Hello,
I've written her a couple of times before about constant 'depersonalisation' which started really bad nearly 2 years ago. I thought I was doing 'ok' but now I've gone right back to square one and the last couple of days I've never felt so bad. I don't know what to do as feel so scared of the feelings. I've been back and forth to the Drs but as my bloods have all come back normal they say I'm fine (apart from having tested positive for glandular fever last year summer). I'm so scared I'm finding it really hard to explain how I'm feeling...I've forgot what feeling 'normal' feels like and I'm petrified that I need to take myself off to hospital with a brain tumour or something as I don't know if I feel 'right'. I feel strange to be a person! Nothing feels right! I feel like I don't know myself/identity, don't know anyone around me or any places! I constantly feel like I'm walking around disoriented and confused! I'm finding it hard to explain but right now I feel terrible. I feel like I could run around in a major panic like I don't have a clue of who and what I am! I'm so worried this is more than depersonalisation/anxiety. Some how I manage to sit and talk to people but I really don't know how as I feel like I've just been placed here this second in this person life and don't understand how I know anyone.
Thank you