Hi Twinkle,
I am so :(:(sad to hear what you have gone through, my heart goes out to you. my thoughts are with you right now and I'm wishing you well.
Please don't blame yourself it's not your falt and you have not let anyone down.
Hope you feel better soon.
LOVE JILLXX
May your troubles be less
and your blessings be more
and nothing but happiness
come through your door..