I've had some sort of relapse I think. I was doing so well after almost 3 months on 10mg although I was nowhere near "cured". Then all of a sudden 2 weeks ago I came crashing back down and it has got progressively worse since then. It did correspond with a change in my HRT patches but I've since reverted back to the old ones but I'm still bad. Sleep is awful, appetite has gone again, racing thoughts, questioning everything, horrible physical symptoms like pounding heart, dry mouth, sweating and shaking etc.
Went to see my doctor yesterday who increased my dose to 20mgs and said 10 won't really do anything, that it is just a starting dose and he was surprised that I'd had improvement on them. Well I'm too frightened to take the new ones now because my anxiety is so bad at the moment that I'm not sure how I would cope with a possible increase in it! Also I have taken on a job volunteering one day a week at age concern and now I don't even think I can do that and I'm going to have to tell them I can't come in at the moment. I don't think this is helping my anxiety and I feel guilty because they've just paid out to have a full DBS check done on me.
Sorry for the moan, just feeling awful after a night of no sleep and racing thoughts