So I've been pretty good these last few weeks suicide intrusive thoughts have been hardly there and when they are in can just sit with them and not let them bother me to much. But the past few days I've been slightly more anxious jaw clenching is horrible and pounding heart even tho on propananol, but this morning I woke early around 4 and felt awful and strange having bad thoughts again but not as bad as previous but there their. Do I class this a bad week or a blip, I haven't cried for a few weeks which is good for me as.i couldn't go a day without crying but this morning I could just sob also have that churning feeling in my tummy xx