Mirtazapine and mental blocks

[LittleMissAlone]

Hi Pulisa

I'm so glad things are going well for you. One year of agitation, that's tough. I had to google ACT therapy, not heard of it, but yes it sounds perfect for people with long time issues along this line. Accepting this is the way we are without any of these fancy NLP type techniques (which don't work) is the only way to go. It's clearly helping your daughter too.

Yes, I think I'm stronger psychologically too. For the past 3 weeks I've been trying to ring someone I've had a 'thing' for for years now. There's something that needs clearing up. I only have work contact details and he's on school holidays at the moment. It's MASSIVE, Pulisa, but I'm now excited about it, want to get it over and done with. In early October I was sent anonymous flowers in the post and I think they're from him. By mid October I was ill in bed, having had terrible panic attacks at work and having to leave (it was only an agency type job). I've tried emailing and got no response (it's beyond complicated). No one else would have sent flowers. Unless he's married this summer, he's still single, though of course could have a girlfriend.

So for my own sanity that's being sorted! I'll look into this ACT therapy here.

Hi Sharon

I guess stick with the venlafaxine, Joy was sorted in 2 months! Prior to it she had no respite on Mirtazapine 45mg, but she could handle appointments and things, but for her it was just constant, only feeling slightly better with her family.

I'm going to my parents today. No choice, I've got out of it lately because they've not been around. It's another of my mental blocks, but of course they're worried and want to see me. They don't understand. Fortunately I look, seem and act fine and it is relaxing there. I'll just loll about reading the Sunday Times and have my dinner brought to me. I'm so much better now than I was last time I was there anyway. Could only handle 4 hours then.

Anyway, do keep in touch! It's funny hearing about your winter, we had a hot day yesterday!

[pulisa]

I really hope you can make contact, LMA, and that the response is positive. Psyching yourself up to do it is the hardest bit-just bite the bullet and do it without too much mental "preparation" if you can? I understand how massive this will be...

Good luck at your parents today. Staying 4 hours seems like a fair stretch of time to me. Just take it as it comes.

Sharon, it must be hard for you but you always keep going and give your dogs such a good lifestyle despite your own issues. I hope the meds help you to progress on to much better times

[LittleMissAlone]

Thanks Pulisa, see, you are so understanding! The thing with this guy, I've never been told to go away, I've only got work contact details, not his home. Then there's the flowers. Can you imagine having been sent flowers to your home address name spelt right and everything over 10 months ago without knowing? This chap has those details, other reasons too which point me to him. I can only focus on what he's done rather than all the embarrassing things I've done. It's about me and my recovery, not him. For years I've not been able to contact him apart from the odd email which is ignored. Even a negative response will be a help.

I seem to have quite a few friends who are not being as supportive as you'd think. Surely I deserve a bit of good news in my love life? I wouldn't be envious of me!

I'm feeling better about my parents. Mums rung, she's putting no pressure on. It's only an hour away, should be ok.

I agree with you about Sharon and those dogs, as much as I'm jealous of her living by the sea!

Have a lovely day.

[pulisa]

You've got nothing to lose, LMA. Give it a try and see what happens...? If you do nothing then you'll never know what could have been...

Flowers sent to the office sounds very romantic and yet mysterious and intriguing...keep us posted!!

[LittleMissAlone]

Office? Home address! I sent an email asking if he'd sent them at the time, nothing. I've sent 2 messages earlier this year telling him I've been ill (he has an interest in mental health, ha!), nothing. He sounds like a heartless ******* (that'll go!) but it's more than that. I've not blamed him for my being ill, there were other things too, but that was what pushed me over the edge. I've found out through the wonderful internet that his dad died in January so he's been through a tough time himself.

Yes, all those cliches are true. I have to say to myself he's not dead! He's not married, unless he has very recently. He lives about 200 miles away so there's that safe distance, he doesn't do social media.

Just need to know, yes I'll keep you informed.

[pulisa]

Sorry...I didn't read that properly!

Even better that he doesn't do social media! He's obviously a Man Of Mystery and he must have ben through the mill following his Dad's death. The time sounds right to try to contact him again and it will give you something a lot more positive to focus on...and maybe to get better for...?We all need some motivation and something to look forward to which can be hard to imagine when we are very low..

Good luck today!

[LittleMissAlone]

Thanks for being understanding. Yes, the time is right. My heart did flips the first time I rang, but it's getting easier. Just taking back power. You've probably noticed I can communicate my arse off!

I think his dad had cancer, so possibly horribly ill when the flowers were sent... Yes it is a good sign he doesn't do social media.

Right, will apply the mindfulness principles to heading out!

Thanks for listening to me, I'm aware this isn't as interesting for others as it is for me!

[pulisa]

No, it's very interesting for me and could be highly significant for you. I really hope so!

[LittleMissAlone]

Well, stayed at my parents over 6 hours and ate a tiny lunch, but last time I went I was there 4 hours and ate only a bit of melon. Got there and dad asked how I was feeling and I said fine, and he believed me! They don't get it, do they?

Felt horribly hot throughout. My flat is much cooler and I would have stripped off if alone. But I was wearing a viscose dress, dead sweaty. I think if I wasn't as hot I would have eaten more, could only manage tiny bit of fish, spud and veg. Parents are cool about it, I said I wasn't hungry.

So that's that out the way. Today so much to do (eating healthily and exercise to make up for yesterday) and the phone campaign continues!

[pulisa]

"Fine" can cover a multitude of sins, can't it?! It's such a stock answer but people don't really want to hear beyond that word..

You did very well at your parents and have done your "duty" for a while. I'm sure they were really pleased to see you and have probably been very worried about you...with older people mental health issues are still quite a sticking block..

See what today brings....