Hi, this is my first post here. I've read through the posts on oral/mouth cancer but didn't find one similar to my situation. Hoping for some advice and maybe reassurance.

In June I noticed what I would call a lesion in the roof of my mouth. It is painless and started kind of long and thin. But not a hard growth, more of a bump. I also had a really bad sore throat. In early July I saw a periodontist (gum and mouth skin specialist) who could see what he called a kind of "dimpling" in the skin but did not think it was anything serious whatsoever. However he asked me to come back in 4 weeks.

For the sore throat I saw an ENT. I was honest about my general health anxiety fear of throat cancer so he looked in my throat with a camera/scope and said it looked fine. I got some special pills for GERD which did help the sore throat (although not entirely). He also prescribed clorhexidine mouthwash and toothpaste to see if it helped either the throat or lesion.

I then saw my regular dentist in early August, same reply as the periodontist. And went back to the periodontist about two weeks ago, who again said it didn't look dangerous but to let him know if anything changed.

Then about a week ago I noticed the lesion was changing. It became less long and thin and more of a rough area. It also seems to protrude out a tiny bit around the edges and I can see a white spot. I was hoping it was the clorhexidine working but after 2 weeks of treatment it's still there and the same size just the long "dimple" is gone.

The ENT called to check on me on Wednessay and I mentioned that the lesion was changing. He immediately suggested a biopsy which is scheduled for Tuesday evening. It apparently will be done in his office.

Yesterday and today I started getting pain in my right ear, an intermittent ache.

Meanwhile ... Compounding my fear and anxiety, my husband and I are supposed to leave on a 3-week driving holiday around Europe on Wednesday evening.

I am incredibly anxious about this and convinced that I have mouth cancer. I have been crying and Dr Google says the worst. I'm so scared of cancer and hat if it is cancer I will die. And even if it's "just" anxiety causing my earache and the lesion is nothing, I'm so worried this will ruin my holiday as well, worrying about the biopsy results. God forbid if it is either suspicious or is cancerous and I need an MRI or treatment and we are down in southern Italy with our car and have to drive home taking 4-5 days, and either way I'll be obsessing over it constantly. help :( :(

Don't know what to do. My husband is away on business until Monday and he won't understand this anyway (lucky guy). I tried to get a psychologist appt but there was nothing available until Wednesday (same day we leave!!!!). I have no friends/support because I live in a foreign country.

Should we go on holiday? Should we cancel the driving and fly so I can fly back for treatment? Or should we just drive and say that IF it is cancerous I can always fly home on my own for the treatment/follow up?!? Then my husband has to drive 3000km alone :(

Help :( :(