still getting worried about withdrawals. in fact I had a panic attack today thinking I might be getting them which is almost ironic.
Since my therapy and coping techniques have improved i'm pretty much down to 4mg every 3-4 days now (sometimes a bit less). I've been on as-and-when 2mg diazepam for 2 months or so now. Never ever day. But the last month has been pretty much solid 4mg x 2 a week.
I had my review with the physc and he says that's a very low does and would take a long time to build up any tolerance/withdrawal given the 3-4 day gaps. And that as I get better from the therapy i'll need to take it less and less anyway. That should reassure me surely?
After not taking any for 4 days I was doing ok. doing my cbt stuff and making progress (actually doing the exposure it a bit too fast which almost led to a panic attack) I woke up this morning feeling a little be shakey. After reading a few horror stories I thought "This must be the start of withdrawal!". I had a nasty taste in mouth too (since id just woke up). Which I also remember reading was a symptom. Also my stomach felt a bit odd. Constipation feeling maybe. Anyway this all convinced me I was about to start getting nasty withdrawal (including vomiting and I'm an emetophobe so my worst nightmare).
Annyoningly I ended up getting myself into a state and took my 4mg diazepam. Obviously all the symptoms went away, I felt fine. dozed off..
So of course I don't know if it was withdrawal or just panic about withdrawal. Kinda ironic that I have my first proper panic attack in a week panicking about diazepam withdrawal.
I don't know what it will take to reassure me but if anyone has any suggestions they'd be welcome