Re: New to this site - my story (in brief!)
Hi CJK. It sounds like you may have some anxiety and panic attacks that are leading to you towards agoraphobia. I agree that taking meds is not failing, you may experience some start up effects if you choose to to down that path, so it is probably best to arm yourself with knowledge about what you may experience so that you know they are just start up effects and nothing else is going on. There are lots of things you can try. Deep breathing for 15minutes a day and mindfullness is good. There are a lot of books out there that can help you understand what anxiety and panic attacks are and how to overcome them. I have just started putting into practice some strategies from a book called DARE by Barry McDonagh. He has a few videos on youtube if you wanted to look at these and get some idea about it. Also Claire Weekes books have some methods. One of things that I learnt from the DARE book is that anxiety is just nervous energy in your body, it can't hurt you. Along with panic attacks, these are just symptoms they won't hurt you either. This isn't it. I was first diagnosed 20 years ago, I have had a few blips along the way, every 10 or so years, but other than that I have held down a full time job and have parented two children and run a household. There is help there and you will get through this.
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